Remembering Clarence Clemons

It was a long time ago, around 1972 or so. I was a student at Rutgers-Livingston, an employee, member of the Student Center Board alumn, so had access to a lot of concerts. There was no MTV so we never knew what people looked like 'til we saw them. On a particular night, there was to be a concert in Records Hall, not the Gym as was usual. But my at the time boyfriend and I decided to go.

As we drove to destination, we came upon a stuck car, with a big man in some distress because he had to be at his job, was concerned Campus Patrol would tow the car, and a bit lost and distressed. My boyfriend and I helped him get his car to the side, and phoned campus patrol. It came out that the "big man" was to be at Records Hall for the concert. Campus Patrol said not to worry about the car; how could they get in to see the concert? So info was exchanged, and the big man went in one door, we went in the front.

I remember signing in, and saying, "I've been really curious to see Clarence C. Lemons. I like Jack Lemon a lot." It drew some giggles, oh, well, that's o.k.

My boyfriend had removed the seats from our VW because it was floor seating; soon the concert commenced. And there was "The Big Man". playing the saxophone! Wow. He could have had much more ego about him at meeting, as some persons would have had. But he didn't. That was what was so great about him. Getting to his job was important, who he was in his job never emerged til they began to play.

Intermission, a brief conversation with the Bandmaster took place, about what we thought and the overall sound. I told him the horns drowned everything out, all except the big man on the sax, who seemed to know just how to weave his sound in and around the music. Mr. S's response was surprise, as usually all he ever heard was "Yeah, man, This is great and that's great and the trumpets really make the band." Being aI  singer most of my life,  I don't like the vocals or other parts of the music being drowned out. And that's what was happening. They weren't "making" the band, they were "overriding" it. It was then that I found out I did a thing I've often done with persons of some note: The "Big Man' on the sax was Clarence Clemons. Another chuckle when I repeated that I had thought his name was Clarence C. Lemons.

Even funnier when the Big man was told that. His response? Yup. "Clarence see lemons when he see blondes. Every time I look in the audience, Clarence see lemons when he see blondes." Nobody could have given a more amusing "You airhead!" response. Isn't that right, Bring Sprucesteen? And I still do like the fruity Jetty Beads.

People cannot be replaced. His way may be imitated, but you've got to feel it. I don't think anyone can even be compared to Clarence Clemons. They'd have to be him, for real.

Sympathies to all to whom his passing was on a personal level. There is not much I can say to take the pain of your loss away. These things are things we never really "get over", we just learn to live with the empty space that is left. In time, hopefully, things will enter your lives and fill to some extent, his absence. There is always a part of us that goes with when we lose someone from our lives, a piece of us that never comes back. Yes, it seems, we a little part of ourselves dies too. The best we can do is remember that the depth of our grief is beyond equal to the depth of our love. But it was a life well lived and well received, and now he is beyond all pain. Our pain will in time diminish, and we too will pass one day beyond the pain this world inflicts. Be at peace, and grateful that you had this man for the time which he was granted to be.

With warmest remebrance,
Prinzessin "Pegi" Hohenzoller

ROCK MY SOUL - "Gato Noire"

GATO NOIRE

Pretty round green lantern lights

Dancing in the starless night

Their rhythm steady, coming near

I wait to see what will appear.

A graceful shadow shape emerges

Carrying an ample burden.

From her mouth she sets it down,

A white kitten edged with brown,

Then slips into the ebon veil

Her emerald lanterns dance again.

She brings to me a second gift

This time it is black as she.

I open wide my door to her

One at a time she carries them

To behind my water bed

Where she feels they will be safe.

Oh, Miss Midnight, if only humans could

Love and care the way you do!

You are beautiful, Belle Gato.

Pegi Regine Hohenzoller

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About Kaylee A.

Sane people get upset when life is stolen from an innocent. Kaylee was 2 years old.

I am surprised the prosecution did not theorize the thing most plausible. Kaylee was bound, her mouth covered with duct tape, and locked in the trunk of her mother's car. It was most like likely that Casey A. was going to claim that Kaylee had accidentally climbed into and been locked into the trunk of the car. Removing the child in her parents' yard would account for the cadaver dags' alerting there. Realizing there were marks, which would not exist on a decayed body, Casey disposed of Kaylee and proceeded to pretend she was safely in the care of a person who in reality does not exist.

The motive is clear and sadly more frequent than realized, though more often between husbands and wives, not children and parents, that they had been displaced in the affection of those most important by the arrival of the child. So it seems to be the case in this matter, so derived from statements made by Casey in the jailhouse tapes, which clearly have Casey feeling more like an outsider, an onlooker, to a relationship between Kaylee and her parents, Kaylee now having displaced her; that Casey felt no longer important nor a part of their lives; an insignificant factor in their lives.

This in itself is not unusual; many parents make the mistake of doting on the grandchild, for whatever their own dysfunction is. Often immediately after childbirth, people dote on "the baby", forgetting the mother and pushing aside other siblings. It can result in anything from depression, resentment, sibling rivalry and obviously murder. And it is a mistake, a serious one, in any case; when the primary persons in one's life turn their affections elsewhere, in the case of someone who is primarily dependent on them for her own well-being, that person's stability and any sense of mattering are dissolved. It plays itself out in multiple ways. In this case, it was murder which Casey believes was not by her own hand, as she did not directly slay the child, but put her in a position so as to cause her death by indirect means.

It is a dangerous game for parents to play but I see it unfolding every day. The more stable persons would not put their child into a position of having her feel the grandchild meant more to them than their own. Do they do it deliberately? I believe so, to punish their own offspring and cause anguish in the "now see what you did and you're responsible for it" retaliation for having a child out of wedlock. This has been seen more often in the light of having a boyfriend or significant other involved rather than one's own parents. But so it is.

It was jealousy and resentment which led to my being abducted, though the elders involved were not guilty of having pushed aside their own in favor of me. She simply wanted to deprive me of the love and advantage my own parents' position held for me, herself having been displaced from Czechoslovakia during WWII. Had she murdered me, she could not have more taken my life than in doing what she did. There were no mitigating factors of improper behavior toward her by her mother, grandfather or grandmother. But the resentment was no less there for reasons existing within her own mind only and that she had lied to so many about so many things, one of those things being that she had given birth to me. She lived in Ulm, I was left in caretaking in a small town of approximately 50 houses. In all the years of her life, her jealousy and rsentment toward me never abated. She would lie to people, call my boyfriends and make up tales, try to turn my "adopted" siblings against me, tried to turn me against them and my "niece". Most recently I learned from one of my "adopted" brothers that she had always made him feel he was insignificant compared to me. This emerged 10 years after her death. I didn't know what I had done to have this at one time close to me "brother", whom I had protected, driven around with his drum kit, gone to all his baseball games, almost all of his gymanstics meets, involved him in community theater with me. I am glad we talked, but between, there was much pain and damage done. I told him she never treated me as she described me to him, but rather that I was incompetent, clumsy, tonedeaf, trying to steal her husband, having an affair with her husband; all products of a deranged mind. In the end, my brother said "You were a really good sister." What could I say, except "I haven't changed. No matter what she said, I am still me. "She" had a habit of driving a wedge between people because she wanted everyone to worship her. I'm sorry she succeeded, but think about reality and what did happen in actuality."

But I do see the damage still, that he expects to be rejected and his accomplishments to be deemed second to me. One day he was going on about a painting I'd done, how wonderful etc., it was. I was taken aback. I do what I do because it is what I do, so praise is not a thing I'm sure how to relate to sometimes. But I said to him, "Without you, there wouldn't be that wall to hang it on." He giggled, said, "I guess, I think." The man can build an entire house and a 24 x 36 space I filled holds more meaning? Somehow, I don't think so. I can only hope I do the right thing, so he doesn't slip into that mental anguish again. He's "my little brother" and I do love him as such. But there are certain lines I won't let anyone cross, and crossing it cost him two years of my friendship. I'm still there to help unless he is doing something mean and dishonest because I know despite having a family, he feels alone and abandoned. But that is the way of this country, a way I never felt in Germany. And that is one reason I so love the people of my Homeland.

And under all the lies, the rubble and the garbage, I am one of them. The first 8 years of my life set my principles, my standards, my sense of justice, respect and social equality. It is unity. It's a concept the "United" States doesn't have. Because there is no "troika" , no "Bund", here, only cut-throat competition. And that doesn't make a country "United". Though I am a very bad typist, it's no mistake when I call them the "Untied" States. Everyone is in it only for themselves, "union" members included. They don't give a hoot for the rest of the country.
On a lighter note, when I first spoke of my early childhood whereabouts, pre-USA, I said I was with the "Bunten Deutschen Republischen Leuten".  Bundesrepublik Deutschland. And the post office here gets pissy when I write it on an envelope. And a similar prejudice lives inside some families. Schade. 

Regine Hohenzoller

Verruecktigkeit es gibt!

Von allen den Wannsinn das ich hoehre, dieses sack voll Scheisses nimmt das ganze:
Wie "Amerikanish" ich bin, das ich sage was ist, und merhrere sollen so tuhn.
Das ist nich eine "Amerikanerin" die spricht, es ist eine echte, Freie Prinzeesin Deutschland die so sagt.

Bis jetzt, verstehen sie nicht das ich wollte niemals hier sein, und wollte niemals hier bleiben, aber bin nur nur als Kaptiv von "U.S. Values". Das meint, sie haben dazu geschaut, das ich niemals genug Geld hatte um zu leben und zu meine Heimat zurueck kann. So darauf muss ich denken, "Wie erschaffe ich das? Jeztz das sie haben mich ganz kaput gemacht, nur kurz von wann ich konnte von hier in '88 weg. Und sie denken das meine Familie oder Deutschland soll bezahlen vuer den Leid das sie selbst hatten mich getahn? Ich habe dem gerade gesagt, das sie nicht im richtigen Gesinn ueberall sind.

Sie machen ihren eigenen Geburge flach weil es Koll dadrinnen gibt. Und dan klagen sie, wann jemand anderes ihre verruecktigkeit entgegnet. Zum Teufel damit. Wann das ganze ding gaz null ist, und mich auch damit, dann kummere ich mich nicht mehr darueber. Aber ich denke nicht das ich kann lange mehr aushalten, weil ich selbst wuerde gerne dagegn tragen. Und sie haben das vom anfang gewusst. Wann sie hatten diese verfalschte Stadtsangehoerigkeit vertrag gemacht, mit den Eltern. Und cih hatte dem gesagt, mwin Vater heisst Nikolaus. Harald auch hat das gesagt, aber von ihm selbst hat er gesagt er wusste nicht den Nahmen seines Vaters. Und noch haben sie diese sache durchgebracht. Ich habe auf der Stelle gesagt und unterschrieben das ich niemals vuer USA Waffen tragen will. Und ich habe es wieder gesagt. Und es steht auf Rekord so. Darum hatte icj einen Gruenen Reisepass stets einen Blauen gehabt. Aber meine Deutsche Papieren habe ich wider, und mein Deutscher Reisepass, die Edith Gango Murphy hatte von mir und Harald gestohlen. Meine echtige Geburtspapieren sind irgendwo, nur die verfalschte habe ich. Und von USA kann ich sie nicht erhalten. Und jetzt probieren sie mein USA Verleztenkasse Geld zu abschneiden.
So lass den Teufel los, weil Gottliche leute sind diese nicht. Und es ist mir egal wer stebt hier oder nicht.
Wann der Herr Gott dieses ganzes Land auseinander mit Wetter un Scuettlung runtertragt, sage ich, ja, doch, es gibt ein Gott, und er weisst wann er soll den Teufel los laufen. Nichts richtiges oder echtes regelt USA----auf eine Zeit, ja. Aber das der Obama nicht ein sprung von Hitler ist, wie er will die ganze Welt regeln, glaube ich nicht.
Und so sehe das ich.
Freiheit unter USA gibts doch nicht. Nur was ich von meinem eigenen selbst angreiffe. Lieber echtig "arm" auf Moergen dan Falsch "Reich" auf diesem Land. Alle haben Geld schulden, sonnst weiter geht das Leben nicht. Und das ist nicht was gutes. Eine grosse verfalschung ist alles das es ist.

(Ich hab Deutschen Embassy e-mail geschriben, was mein Ziel ist. Muss mal schlafen so ich kann zum Notar und die Papieren schicken.)

Prinzessin Hohenzoller  

Obama-speak Translation

Translation of Obama-speak "Nation-building"_To attempt by coerson, indebtedness, guil or fear or force or false representation and prom,ises, other sovereign nations to allow occupation by United States of America and become a territory thereof for the purpose of free access to their resources and logistical location and make it's people USA dependent and and accountable to the USA. "Colonizing."
As it currently is, he acts as though this has already occurred. No  nation is required to answer to the USA. That is what the UN is for.

P.E.G. I.

Hello World!

It is the 14th of June 2011. In 4 days, it will be 52 years since I was abducted and unlawfully detained in the USA. It will be 46 years since they coerced me to sign a document of citizenship, at age 14, not knowing what I was signing, on the promise that if I signed it, I (and my adopted brother Harald) could go home. It was all a pack of lies, including their attempts to coerce me to sign by promising that I would have everything I would have had in Germany if I stayed in the USA. I wasn't going to do it, but then they promised me I could go home if I signed. Since I'm still in the USA, obviously I never got to go home. My 4 attempts ended in one physical assault and 3 incarcerations as a "runaway", when the fact is that I was lied to. They were told repeatedly that these people were not my parents and I had no idea who they thought I was or what gave them any right above my parents, or any right to keep me, or prevent me from going home or anything else that they did. It wouldn't have happened if the male in the matter had given his true address in the US instead of a false, temporary one in Germany; it wouldn't have happened if the abductress hadn't sweet-talked the fiance of the Standesbeamter into approving the documents. It would be today if the US Immigration and Naturalization Authorities had given a damn when I told them these people are not my parents, my Father's name is Nikolaus. I was already well on my way into full blown amnesia; the chosen day also unnerving me because they used the little stress tactic of scheduling this farce in Newark, NJ on the same day as graduation ceremonies were to take place in East Brunswick, NJ. But it doesn't end there.

I am, unfortunately, here, in the USA. They attacked me first, by writ and harassment for the villification of one person's ego. That is typical. It is the same way Barack "Neu-Hitler" Obama is. There were valid questions raised over his citizenship status; what was not determined was although having been born in Hawaii, his heritage is African and he is within the age group which very well could have been spawned by NAZIs in Afrika (you remember, they were there too). Despite the fact that my abductress was of NAZI bent, I had 8 years before her to learn how to spot NAZIs, and to fight their ilk. The USA has descended into that hell. Yeah, "Arbeit Macht Frei", otherwise you are a captive at their mercy for life. A little slave in their capitalist machine. And they can't understand why no one wants to participate in this government, in voting, or why there is a gang and drug epidemic. They're just following the example set by the electorati. If it doesn't agree with you or give you what you want, just remove it from the face of the earth. And help yourself to anybody's money any time you want. Also their property. These gang kids are acting out what they see the government doing. Someone forgot to tell them that they're supposed to tell the government what to do. Why? Because the government doesn't give a damn. They're going to do whatever they want to do whenever any of them feel like doing it. And Mr. neu_Hitler is taking the money from a bankrupt country so he and his wife can go on world tour "while they have the opportunity to do so". Despicable is too good a word for it. As for the "First LadY', she is at best ineffectual. As for having her mother live in the People's House, aka "The White House", how much is her jaded influence causing Obama's actions? There have been insufficient questions about her heritage and background. But the look she is says she's hiding something she shouldn't be knowing.

What I do know is they are a pack of liars who accuse other countries of things which they themselves are guilty of. Now having blown Lybia's Navy out of the water, there is no one to stop them from taking over the Mediterranenan and freely shipping armaments and munitions into Afrika. They have always had access to Italy and other ports. It is my true belief in the self-determination of every sovereign country which leads me to say:If they trespass against your borders, blow them to kingdom come. Period.

There's another thing:Zinc. Despite the fact that many people are allergic to it and they have found deposits of the substance in the lesions of Alzheimer's patients, one cannot buy a vitamin or food supplement or even food and soft drinks now that aren't loaded down with the stuff. Don't think for a minute the government cares to preserve life. They'd just as soon have a person die so they don't have to pay retirement benefits and medical care for them. Yet they scream that they are pro-life because they are ant-abortion. Just they don't give a damn after the kid is born. Just as long as they have another little robot to keep their Capitalist ethic up and running.

Some people do care, and I couldn't love them more. But as for the rest of them, if my Mother wanted to make the same threat she made against a town that sheltered me when I was lost from home, I would not expect my presence here to stop her from caryying it out. If I'm dead, I'm dead. Just I want to bring Harald's ashes back home to Germany and I would rather die where my soul is at peace. It never has been here and there is nothing that will ever make it at peace again with the USA.

And that is the crux of it. I find their actions and their lies and their motives morally unacceptable and blatantly outrageous. It is time for the rest of the world to stop believing their lies. It's easy to believe that no one is lieing when your government is honest. It is easy to believ them when times are hard. I never believed them from the start, from before I ever set foot on this continent. And time has proven me right, over and over again. And time and time again I have fought against their lies, only to be answered by more lies. And their people know it and don't know what to do about them. It is time for the rest of the world to isolate them to within their borders. It is a barren country. They have depleted their minerals, their fuel sources, their gold, they have no gems outside of turquoise. They have a land that is befouled by crowding, concrete, asphalt, cars and pollution, and everybody living on money which doesn't exist. If everyone stopped spending and holding their money to themselves, it will cause an economic collapse. But all are brainwashed into this "upgrading" standard, which depletes the finances, into living on borrowed everything. It is time their attempts to force their failures to be adopted by others to be "called in". Payment due now. The price is "Get out".

I wrote "Freedom, freedom, rescue me." I wrote it to Germany, to France to anybody to rescue me from the USA. That was 25 years ago. What I wrote them still holds true today. In fact, their humanitarianism toward their own people is disappearing completely. It has not improved, it is getting worse. Yet they lie to other nations and pretend that their way, their "US values", are the right direction to go. They are not. And the sad fact is, most US citizens never realize it until after they have retired and see that the promises are not fulfilled, and all the Constitutional Guarantees are another war to be fought. After having earned it for 55+ years. They are scavengers, they are pirates; worse, they are dictators who never change but that it remains the same.

Obama was the hope of the USA. He has become a scoundrel and dictator, abandoning his own Constitutional job requirement:he has abandoned his own people and provoked war against his own country to become imminent and likely, whereas such was not before Bush the case. But one of their political ideals is that if there is a war underway, he American people will retain the incumbent President. I believe if there is a war provoked by that President, he should not be allowed to serve another term. I would not let Obama finish this term in office, Nor Hillary Clinton.

I don't belong in this country, yet they keep telling me I do. But I don't. I have advised them and my Government that any claims of allegiance to this existenceis a figment of someone else's manufacture and was not, is not and never will be of my own free will.

And that is the difference between my shielding my people in Germany and not these here. I was there of my own will and under the care and protection of all of them. Here, I am under assault continually, if not from the public, then from the creditors, and mostly by the government and the television. It is rare that I can find something on TV which does not display a phony "reality" or is financial, religious or news content. I was happier when I never watched the damned thing, happier without all these appliances and technology cluttering my living space. And I am ready to toss it all in the trash, but I'll just hold a yard sale instead.
I can use the funds to put aside so I can escape from this hell finally and forever.

Pegi

Zeit Zu

So, it's not enough that Barack Obama thinks he's the King of the World, now Hillary Clinton thinks she rules Afrika. That's nervy. First they cause insurrection in Lybia and now demands no other Afrikan countries trade with them or else there will be revolts? Who is she to call for any of this. Enough is enough and this is too much.
Too long have "Americans"(United States of, primarily) invaded and trespassed and crossed boundaries with no right to do so. Years ago, there were singns all over the USA that said "Trespassers will be shot". Shalom a Gleichmach.
Close your borders to them. If you find them straying around in your country, arrest them and drop them off, hadcuffed & unharmed, at the nearest US Consulate.
This garbage needs to end. Today. They are doing this for mineral and gemstone mining rights which were recently denied to them by Ethiopa. Afrika has them, and has kept them in good control without damage to the land. Let USA in, and the land will be destroyed, the people thrown away. I know what's what, where and why. No matter how much the Amerikans lie.

Es reicht nicht, das Barack Obama denk das er der Koening der Welt ist, jezt denkt Hillary Clinton das sie die Regine Afrika ist. Welche nerve! Zuerst aufregen sie die Unruhe auf Lybia, dann sagen sie all Afrika, sie duerfen nichts mit Lybia zu tuhen haben? Nichts Wirtschaflichtes wie normal autragen oder kommt ueber ganz Afrika weitere unruhe?
Es is zeit su lange das "Amerikanern" (Unites States, premiere) haben Grenzen uebertreten und mit Waffen andere Lanender als Hostage gehalten. Es gab auf USA erkundigen, "Wer mein land uebertrteted, wird Geschossen". So mach auch gleich.
Grenzne gegen Amerkanern, wichtigsten gegen United States of Amerika, zuschliessen; wanderleiute davon, ueberhaften und zum naehesten Konsulat tragen, ohne leid.
Solche Amerikanische Scheisse soll abhalten. Heute.
Ab sofort-Edelweiss Eins treff USA 1, 2, 3.....ganz null, Retaliata Regize Regine.