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Monday, June 13, 2011
You People Need to Know
Leaders of Countries must allow the free flow of information to your people. Had you not barred this, they would have been able to read what I write. I am in absolute opposition to the course the USA has been taking. It was stated that "Lybia only has 1% of the oil" so what is the reason?
They are trying to force all countries to adopt Capitalism, whic has nothing to do with Democracy. You can be a Socialist Republic and still be Democratic. I wish my correspondences had reached the people; it may have allayed this violence.
For a fact, the USA has taken actions against the following countries, all Socialist Republics: (Alphabetically)
Afghanistan(Acts of War)
Burma (Trade Embargo)
Cambodia (Acts of War)
Cuba (Total Embargo and Isolation)
Egypt ????propoganda infiltration
Lybia(Acts of War)
N. Korea (Smearing Reputation)
Somalia (Military Aggression)
Syria???(Propogandist infiltration)
Viet Nam (Acts of War)
Yes, I know there are a lot missing from the list.
It is not about Democracy and the people having a voice at all. It is all about these lies of prosperity and self-determination. I know of no developed country which more strongly represses self-determination through and for Capitalist economics means the USA.
That their acts are duplicitous are self-evident. The major auto dealer who went bankrupt went crying to the government for money. But they do not recognize this as a Socialist act. Without the Socialist Policies the USA does grant, the Great Depression after World War Two would be a recurring cycle. Only the Socialist Programs have kept this country from going into a serious economic crash. Yet they lie to you, the rest of the world, just as they lie to their own and delude themselves.
Release my writings on this blog to the people. It is the truth.
I have nothing to gain from this except the peace of the world, true equality and true social justice. It does not exist in the USA.
Do not let the USA deceive you into thinking they would not fire on their own people if the White House or their military compounds were attacked. Otherwise, why would they have armed protection? If people try to enter Guantanamo by land, they are fired on. Don't let them deceive you. And as Satan in Christendom is likewise called "the Great Deceiver", what does that make this deceptive nation if not what they have been dubbed by Muslims? I know little of that religion, but most religions do hold the same tenets in common-and I truly also believe that one reason they were so quick to crucify Christ Jesus is that he preached Socialist ethics. Also many precepts of the Catholic church were along Socialist principals-Gluttony being a sin because you may be depriving someone of food who is starving. Also so with Greed. Absolutely so with arrogance. The Church lists 7 deadly sins. In the USA, there are 10 Comandments. What books I read, I believe there are 15; with 16 sub-commandments, one of which forbids the torture, torment or abuse of animals. Even so far as pulling a cat's tail to annoy it or provoking a dog to barking, or beating horses, or abusing and mistreating any animal or "beast". My home church ptaught this, preached this, printed it. But no US person I spoke to ever heard a word of it before I told them of it. And a lot of them abuse their animals. The good people cannot keep up with the amount of resuing which needs to be done.
And I am so proud of Australia for refusing to send cattle to Indonesia. If they cannot respect the thing that gives them life, they will have to, as God said, "scrape the ground" for it. Bravo, Australia.
And this great big cocaine trade coming from Colombia, who is using it? US citizens. Because they hate what this country is, they hate their lives; but they don't care anymore when they are high. All they care about then is getting high again so they do not have to live in a reality which severely has needed reformation. Sure, they freed some black people from slavery. But they have found other ways to keep people enslaved all their lives. Granted, no one can claim "ownership" of a person, but they say their company or their job or the bank "owns" them...Being high makes it all go away. So to those of you supplying the USA with cocaine, etc.-you are helping perpetuate the thing you want to negate.
Don't be blinded by the facade they present. If there is true freedom here, it is reserved for a very few.
I know the difference. I have lived in freedom. And the USA is not free, nor have I been since I set foot on this land in June of 1959. If I were truly free, I could have gone home to my homeland, couldn't I? The one time I was able to do so, my Aunt was in the Eastern zone in Germany. The Government paid her train fare so she could come see me. That is freedom, not this, where I can't even get the Government to provide on a one time basis transportation to a needed medical consultation.
They have a new slogan (yeah, they love those catch-all don't bother me with facts statements). I see it on bumper stickers and posters and it maddens me: It says "Freedom isn't free." Then it isn't freedom as guaranteed by the US Declaration of Independence from England or it's Constitution. By those documents, freedom is free. But their guarantees are as worthless as their words and the false promises they make.
Anything I said in support of Barack Obama, I fully retract. He is an egotistical tyrant who doesn't give a damn about the people. Running around having fun in Europe in the midst of a major disaster hitting his country. Regardless of how I feel towards my self-proclaimed "parents", if there was a crisis or emergency, my Dad took off from work and came. He is into this NAZI "Arbeit Macht Frei" thing. But it doesn't free most people, just other routes of monetary enslavement present themselves.
Were it otherwise, I would not be in the USA.
Prinzessin Pegi Hohenzoller
They are trying to force all countries to adopt Capitalism, whic has nothing to do with Democracy. You can be a Socialist Republic and still be Democratic. I wish my correspondences had reached the people; it may have allayed this violence.
For a fact, the USA has taken actions against the following countries, all Socialist Republics: (Alphabetically)
Afghanistan(Acts of War)
Burma (Trade Embargo)
Cambodia (Acts of War)
Cuba (Total Embargo and Isolation)
Egypt ????propoganda infiltration
Lybia(Acts of War)
N. Korea (Smearing Reputation)
Somalia (Military Aggression)
Syria???(Propogandist infiltration)
Viet Nam (Acts of War)
Yes, I know there are a lot missing from the list.
It is not about Democracy and the people having a voice at all. It is all about these lies of prosperity and self-determination. I know of no developed country which more strongly represses self-determination through and for Capitalist economics means the USA.
That their acts are duplicitous are self-evident. The major auto dealer who went bankrupt went crying to the government for money. But they do not recognize this as a Socialist act. Without the Socialist Policies the USA does grant, the Great Depression after World War Two would be a recurring cycle. Only the Socialist Programs have kept this country from going into a serious economic crash. Yet they lie to you, the rest of the world, just as they lie to their own and delude themselves.
Release my writings on this blog to the people. It is the truth.
I have nothing to gain from this except the peace of the world, true equality and true social justice. It does not exist in the USA.
Do not let the USA deceive you into thinking they would not fire on their own people if the White House or their military compounds were attacked. Otherwise, why would they have armed protection? If people try to enter Guantanamo by land, they are fired on. Don't let them deceive you. And as Satan in Christendom is likewise called "the Great Deceiver", what does that make this deceptive nation if not what they have been dubbed by Muslims? I know little of that religion, but most religions do hold the same tenets in common-and I truly also believe that one reason they were so quick to crucify Christ Jesus is that he preached Socialist ethics. Also many precepts of the Catholic church were along Socialist principals-Gluttony being a sin because you may be depriving someone of food who is starving. Also so with Greed. Absolutely so with arrogance. The Church lists 7 deadly sins. In the USA, there are 10 Comandments. What books I read, I believe there are 15; with 16 sub-commandments, one of which forbids the torture, torment or abuse of animals. Even so far as pulling a cat's tail to annoy it or provoking a dog to barking, or beating horses, or abusing and mistreating any animal or "beast". My home church ptaught this, preached this, printed it. But no US person I spoke to ever heard a word of it before I told them of it. And a lot of them abuse their animals. The good people cannot keep up with the amount of resuing which needs to be done.
And I am so proud of Australia for refusing to send cattle to Indonesia. If they cannot respect the thing that gives them life, they will have to, as God said, "scrape the ground" for it. Bravo, Australia.
And this great big cocaine trade coming from Colombia, who is using it? US citizens. Because they hate what this country is, they hate their lives; but they don't care anymore when they are high. All they care about then is getting high again so they do not have to live in a reality which severely has needed reformation. Sure, they freed some black people from slavery. But they have found other ways to keep people enslaved all their lives. Granted, no one can claim "ownership" of a person, but they say their company or their job or the bank "owns" them...Being high makes it all go away. So to those of you supplying the USA with cocaine, etc.-you are helping perpetuate the thing you want to negate.
Don't be blinded by the facade they present. If there is true freedom here, it is reserved for a very few.
I know the difference. I have lived in freedom. And the USA is not free, nor have I been since I set foot on this land in June of 1959. If I were truly free, I could have gone home to my homeland, couldn't I? The one time I was able to do so, my Aunt was in the Eastern zone in Germany. The Government paid her train fare so she could come see me. That is freedom, not this, where I can't even get the Government to provide on a one time basis transportation to a needed medical consultation.
They have a new slogan (yeah, they love those catch-all don't bother me with facts statements). I see it on bumper stickers and posters and it maddens me: It says "Freedom isn't free." Then it isn't freedom as guaranteed by the US Declaration of Independence from England or it's Constitution. By those documents, freedom is free. But their guarantees are as worthless as their words and the false promises they make.
Anything I said in support of Barack Obama, I fully retract. He is an egotistical tyrant who doesn't give a damn about the people. Running around having fun in Europe in the midst of a major disaster hitting his country. Regardless of how I feel towards my self-proclaimed "parents", if there was a crisis or emergency, my Dad took off from work and came. He is into this NAZI "Arbeit Macht Frei" thing. But it doesn't free most people, just other routes of monetary enslavement present themselves.
Were it otherwise, I would not be in the USA.
Prinzessin Pegi Hohenzoller
Sunday, June 12, 2011
This Thing I Do
It has been long since I entered a church building; the last time was for a funeral of a member of my extended family near Christmas two years ago. For many years I felt there was peace between God and me. Televangelists for the most part leave me cold; they so misinterperet "the Word"; one who had of himself made sense and was able to relate it to today for some reason felt he needed a "circus trick" of someone babbling nonsensically, pretending to have been given the gift of tongues. I e-mailed and told him how low that had taken him down. I tuned in only once more; he was saying a public Act of Contrition for a thing he did not name, but was saddened that he "fell"(from grace).. It was sad, but we all are subject to fall to evil. It disguises itself and comes when we are the most vulnerable. Being human, that is what we are. Fallible.
This thing I do more often now than ever is to tune in to Holy Mass broadcast from the Vatican. I know Pope Benedict is on 'Facebook', and though I am a fan of his, Facebook is not one of my stations.
More often than not, the context of the mass touches on something in my mind; sometimes more directly than others, but at the very least, it gives me an hour away from the chaos that my life has been turned into, an hour to meditate and contemplate. An hour of peace. After much lost sleep and troublesome pain, one night when I turned on the Celebration of the Holy Mass, I slept through it, in the contentedness of knowing that God was watching over me, I was comforted. I invited the Holy Ghost to come into me and take over for a while. It was the deepest, most peaceful sleep I'd had in weeks.
I am a firm believer in Divine Guidance and Divine Inspiration. I believe the things I am given to know, as I have often been told "But how did you know because I never told you about that." that it is the Holy Ghost imparting this knowledge to me. Likewise my writing, my artwork, my creations, the way I know how to heal-they are not matters of my conscious mind, but of a higher power which the "ego"part of my Freud defined psyche is astonished by. Yet there it is, and somehow wrought by my mind or by my hands. There is a higher power which flows through me. Lately, not as much as previously, perhaps because I was not open to it. I need to have that with me every moment of every day. It is the difference between my joy and my peace versus my sorrow and conflict. Sorrow does come with it at times because the truth is not always a matter of joy but a necessity to living. I often have to remind myself that most peole don't have this gift and truly are oblivious to anyone but their own self. While it would be easy to say that they are just plain self-centered, that is not the fact. I can "see" that they can't "see". It is not always easy. Especially when they demand to know how I know. I used to say "I don't know how I know. I just know." Now I do know- it is the Holy Ghost who gives this to me. From some things I am mercifully shielded. I used to think it was a requirement for becoming a "detective", but unfortunately, it isn't. And unfortunately, not a pre-requisite for an elected politician. Perhaps they do not seek it; perhaps it is reserved for Kings and Queens; perhaps it is their refusal to accept that this does exist in their attempts to discredit royal rule and successions.They just don't have it. Looking for it, in it's absence, it is a feeling that there is only empty flesh is the best I can explain it; a "blankness" which is disheartening. Were it otherwise, they would not do as they do. They would know what to preserve and what to destroy. It is in what they destroy that this absence is most evident.
That much of what I do is from Divine Guidance is more apparent at this time when I have not picked up a brush to do a painting or anything else really artistic in nearly four years. Though at times, an entire volume of poetry would spring from me, without re- writes, I've written perhaps five poems in nearly four years and they were cumbersome, not the flashes of inspirations which define most of my writings. I look at what my hands have wrought, not thinking myself capable of that, yet it was done by me. I see some certain things others have achieved; things thought "not humanly possible"......I have no doubt they had Divine Help, among other assistance. I have said that the knowledge came from God. Undergoing medical procedures I have prayed for God to guide the surgeon's hands. It has not failed. God is in the spirit form; it is us who must be open to be his instruments for good and manifest his will and work. It is man forcing man's will on everything in creation which disrupts the Universe. I know how much it has destroyed me, taking me away from where God chose for me. I am not in the USA by his will. That is not where he put me.
No, the Holy Ghost has not left me, just redirected me. The time has been split between healing my stepfather who was near to death at least twice if not more, keeping him from facing amputation of his feet and trying to end these infernal military actions and stop bankrupting the country and take care of this Earth, it's creatures, and the people of their own country. Additionally, an evil entered and it was nearly impossible to cast it out; it lurks, always, waiting to pounce.
And I did a terrible thing: I tried to make a bargain with God, who had asked for nothing, but that which was forfeit will never be restored until resurrection comes. It has left a hole in my life which might never be filled.
And I regret it more than anything I have ever done in my life. I gave up all that had given me the joy of my days, and it was too high a price to pay. But evil sneaks in whenever there is an opening.
So tonight, I realize, however temporary my abode may be, I have to turn it back to me. As it now is, the furniture is not properly placed, the closets not sensibly organised, paperwork and financial problems are everywhere. My mind has lately seen only black and white; my usual keeping of my abode is non- existent and all these things overpower what beauty and ability was bestowed on me.
The reasons for this are multiple, but reasons don't change the problem. I was agonizing over whether or not to expend the energy to put it my way, not knowing how temporary "here" will be and found myself in procrastinator's hell. So today I have concluded that if I do not change the result of what the various evils have caused, despite having banished them directly, they indirectly still prevail. I cannot allow this any longer because they are destroying my soul and draining the life out of me.
So for myself, I pray, Give me strength; and for my enemies, make them speak the truth and enlighten the ignorant and make them stop destroying everything that exists and stop them from financially bleeding us dry. And for myself again, when the time is right, the return to my homeland and my family, to where it was God's will, not man's, for me to be, yet not abandon the precious lives he entrusted to me.
Amen.
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Regine Pegi
(Reign Peace)
This thing I do more often now than ever is to tune in to Holy Mass broadcast from the Vatican. I know Pope Benedict is on 'Facebook', and though I am a fan of his, Facebook is not one of my stations.
More often than not, the context of the mass touches on something in my mind; sometimes more directly than others, but at the very least, it gives me an hour away from the chaos that my life has been turned into, an hour to meditate and contemplate. An hour of peace. After much lost sleep and troublesome pain, one night when I turned on the Celebration of the Holy Mass, I slept through it, in the contentedness of knowing that God was watching over me, I was comforted. I invited the Holy Ghost to come into me and take over for a while. It was the deepest, most peaceful sleep I'd had in weeks.
I am a firm believer in Divine Guidance and Divine Inspiration. I believe the things I am given to know, as I have often been told "But how did you know because I never told you about that." that it is the Holy Ghost imparting this knowledge to me. Likewise my writing, my artwork, my creations, the way I know how to heal-they are not matters of my conscious mind, but of a higher power which the "ego"part of my Freud defined psyche is astonished by. Yet there it is, and somehow wrought by my mind or by my hands. There is a higher power which flows through me. Lately, not as much as previously, perhaps because I was not open to it. I need to have that with me every moment of every day. It is the difference between my joy and my peace versus my sorrow and conflict. Sorrow does come with it at times because the truth is not always a matter of joy but a necessity to living. I often have to remind myself that most peole don't have this gift and truly are oblivious to anyone but their own self. While it would be easy to say that they are just plain self-centered, that is not the fact. I can "see" that they can't "see". It is not always easy. Especially when they demand to know how I know. I used to say "I don't know how I know. I just know." Now I do know- it is the Holy Ghost who gives this to me. From some things I am mercifully shielded. I used to think it was a requirement for becoming a "detective", but unfortunately, it isn't. And unfortunately, not a pre-requisite for an elected politician. Perhaps they do not seek it; perhaps it is reserved for Kings and Queens; perhaps it is their refusal to accept that this does exist in their attempts to discredit royal rule and successions.They just don't have it. Looking for it, in it's absence, it is a feeling that there is only empty flesh is the best I can explain it; a "blankness" which is disheartening. Were it otherwise, they would not do as they do. They would know what to preserve and what to destroy. It is in what they destroy that this absence is most evident.
That much of what I do is from Divine Guidance is more apparent at this time when I have not picked up a brush to do a painting or anything else really artistic in nearly four years. Though at times, an entire volume of poetry would spring from me, without re- writes, I've written perhaps five poems in nearly four years and they were cumbersome, not the flashes of inspirations which define most of my writings. I look at what my hands have wrought, not thinking myself capable of that, yet it was done by me. I see some certain things others have achieved; things thought "not humanly possible"......I have no doubt they had Divine Help, among other assistance. I have said that the knowledge came from God. Undergoing medical procedures I have prayed for God to guide the surgeon's hands. It has not failed. God is in the spirit form; it is us who must be open to be his instruments for good and manifest his will and work. It is man forcing man's will on everything in creation which disrupts the Universe. I know how much it has destroyed me, taking me away from where God chose for me. I am not in the USA by his will. That is not where he put me.
No, the Holy Ghost has not left me, just redirected me. The time has been split between healing my stepfather who was near to death at least twice if not more, keeping him from facing amputation of his feet and trying to end these infernal military actions and stop bankrupting the country and take care of this Earth, it's creatures, and the people of their own country. Additionally, an evil entered and it was nearly impossible to cast it out; it lurks, always, waiting to pounce.
And I did a terrible thing: I tried to make a bargain with God, who had asked for nothing, but that which was forfeit will never be restored until resurrection comes. It has left a hole in my life which might never be filled.
And I regret it more than anything I have ever done in my life. I gave up all that had given me the joy of my days, and it was too high a price to pay. But evil sneaks in whenever there is an opening.
So tonight, I realize, however temporary my abode may be, I have to turn it back to me. As it now is, the furniture is not properly placed, the closets not sensibly organised, paperwork and financial problems are everywhere. My mind has lately seen only black and white; my usual keeping of my abode is non- existent and all these things overpower what beauty and ability was bestowed on me.
The reasons for this are multiple, but reasons don't change the problem. I was agonizing over whether or not to expend the energy to put it my way, not knowing how temporary "here" will be and found myself in procrastinator's hell. So today I have concluded that if I do not change the result of what the various evils have caused, despite having banished them directly, they indirectly still prevail. I cannot allow this any longer because they are destroying my soul and draining the life out of me.
So for myself, I pray, Give me strength; and for my enemies, make them speak the truth and enlighten the ignorant and make them stop destroying everything that exists and stop them from financially bleeding us dry. And for myself again, when the time is right, the return to my homeland and my family, to where it was God's will, not man's, for me to be, yet not abandon the precious lives he entrusted to me.
Amen.
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Regine Pegi
(Reign Peace)
Friday, June 10, 2011
About Bean Sprouts
In the USA about 35 years ago, there was E. coli connected with bean sprouts. Further investigation showed that it was not the bean sprouts, but that they had been stored and packaged with contaminated water in little sealed plastic bags.
Auf USA gab es mindestens 35 Jahren vorher, E. coli ausbruch das sie hatten Bohnen Spruenglen blamiert. Weitere untersuchung erfolgt das es gab E. coli im Wasser wodrinnen die Bohnene Spruenglen in zugesperrte palstich Beuteln sind gewesen.
Pegi
Prinz Phillip: Congratulations on your 90th Birthday. Many Happy Returns of the Day!
Regine Pegi
Auf USA gab es mindestens 35 Jahren vorher, E. coli ausbruch das sie hatten Bohnen Spruenglen blamiert. Weitere untersuchung erfolgt das es gab E. coli im Wasser wodrinnen die Bohnene Spruenglen in zugesperrte palstich Beuteln sind gewesen.
Pegi
Prinz Phillip: Congratulations on your 90th Birthday. Many Happy Returns of the Day!
Regine Pegi
Monday, June 6, 2011
Queen's Day New Zealand 2011
They celebrate my birthday today, though to the best of my recollection, it isn't.
Why they chose this, I can speculate only.
Perhaps to assist in falsifying my identity. Perhaps the name matched someone else born on this day. Perhaps they never knew when my birthday is, so chose a central date and hoped it would balance. Perhaps to discredit the fortune tellers. Perhaps because I got the 3 and 6 mixed up when I wrote what I thought my real birthday was. Too many vairaibles.
Even with the proficiency of German record keeping, it is useless without access. It is useles when one lives in the USA wherein the only history which exists is theirs, and their point of view of it. Despite the well-known family name which is mine by right of birth, there has been nothing in the USA for years to say we ever even existed. Except the other day, when a friend returned from Europe and said he had visited the Habsburg Palace and something about Hohenzollern lived there too. OK. At least we exist someplace and I am happy my friend chose to inquire of it. Someplace for me to start other than Baden Wurttemberg, where I have not been able to connect. Not where we were when I got lost from my parents anyway. We were in their summer home somewhere in the Alps. I know where I got lost to, I never knew where I got lost from, but my Papi felt my name and his were enough to get me home. So obviously, they were of some importance, my real parents.
Supposedly, I am 60 years old today.
But I am treated like I am 12 years old and expected to take on the duties of two houses, mostly the financial ones. That is where the problem is primary. The man I refer to as my "Dad", who has serious brain damage from chronic alcoholism, still fails to look ahead, fails to see past the immediate, and mostly, fails to see the reality of me. He thinks he's putting one over on me, but that is anout to end. His snake-in-the-grass ways wuill come to an end. He minds nothing ofpaying major money to a stranger to take care of him, but me, he wanted it for free. And that was not about to happen. And the protection of his life and finances I have given to him these past 10 years will also end if he refuses to take my advice and instead of running up more debt, refuses to cash in ready assets. I know he is doing this to spite me. He could never stand that I was right and he wasn't. He amuses himself in his fantasy that I will not be able to go home to Germany after his death because he intends to leave me broke and pennyless. That being the case, I will not have time or energy to tend to his needs.
These past 10 years of preventing his death have sucked what was left of my life out of me. Why didn't I just let him die? Truly, I do not know why. It was not a merciless thing. He was not in physical pain. I do not believe in torture for the sake of sustaining life. I had no choice in letting my brother Harry go to his peace. It destroyed me. The only solace I found was that for him, the suffering was ended. For me, it was only truly beginning. The abductress was in so much pain she couldn't draw a breath without crying. Her ribcage collapsed and then there was no way for her to breathe or eat. She had wanted to die for theprevious year, at which time the doctors told me that necrosis had begun to set in; the bone was not renewing itself. That is osteoporosis. Her years of alcoholism and combining opiods with alcohol only hastened the matter. She consumed zero calcium, didn't go out in the sun. It was a mercy for her to go. But his near-deaths were mostly due to his own stupid pig headedness. Except the first one. He had neglected his physical due to the non-stop whining and demands of the abductress and 6 months after her death underwnt a quadruple cardiac bypass surgery. For some reason, he expected my 5'4" and 135# self was supposed to help his 6' and 22# self recuperate at home on my own, refusing to let my boyfriend come with. He rehabbed in the hsopital facilities. He wanted to be home so he could get drunk some more.
After several trips to the emergency room for his alcohol overdoses, foot infections from diabtetes, asthmatic complications, he almost bit the dust 3 times in four years with multiple interim hospital trips for short term treatments. Those shennanigans stopped when I started getting "Into Prinzessin mode". That means I take no b.s. from anyone, doctors and health care people and financial parasites equally. It has kept him out of any and all emergency visits for 21 months now. But he is sliding back into laziness because his current home care is lazy. So things are goin to change.
He has always felt he should be waited on as he was by his wife, and none of the homefront matters are his to do. He simply does not do them when left on his own. It is a brain defect, I understand, and with the holes in his grey matter and his strokes, it is difficult to know the difference of what he cannot or just will not do. But he will clean up the mess he caused. I will not let him die until it is cleaned up, from the negligence to his home to the ridiculous financial decisions he has made. The ultimatum will be that he do as he should and reflect the correct proportions in his will, being that he has 4 grandchildren and not one, all of who have parents and the one he names having parents and three sets of grands, and myself, having no one on this earth. He will pay of his bills with what was intended for that one grandchild who now has a husband of her own, awaiting her third child, a husband, and an extremely well paying job as a teacher which the abductress and my Dad mostly paid for. He only paid for part of the Grandson's education, and at that, only one. And he will correct his errors or he will continue the remainder of his life with those errors but without my help.
There comes a time when I have to think of myself. I am in the wrong country not of my own choosing. I am disabled. There has been no one here whom I could even pretend enough to love to keep a relationship since they took all the men for soldiers when I was of a marrying mind. There are no good choices of men, and in 4 years I have not had the energy to seek out anyone. And it nearly landed me in hospital at the beginning of the year. I have had to let things be as they are. And I will have to start typing the book I began writing after my abductress died. It was too traumatic to recall what I was stolen from, so had to bandon that. I'm thinking of calling it "16 HOURS TO HELL" because that is how long the airplane took to carry me from Germany to the USA in 1959. And I need to contact publishers. ROCK MY SOUL was an e-book 12 years ago. Always ahead of my time and ahead of the thinking of most of this nation. They never catch up to where my mind is; they always lag behind. My "Dad" is no exception. He could not foresee living; only dieing. 10 years ago he wanted to discuss his death. I wanted to discuss his life. Now the time has come when his death must be discussed. If he chooses to continue as is, he will fade away within a year. But it isn't what he implies he chooses. He simply chooses not to do anything himself about it, but expects everyone else to do it for him. He is much like a large baby who unfortunately still has say over matters of importance. No doubt if I answered the letter that came for people in major debt they would advise him as I would. Maybe contacting them will be the ticket to cleaning up that mess and putting available funds where they belong-paying off his debts.
So after another sleepless night brought on by things which should not be my burden in the first place, I am going to smoke, and they can go back to where they came from- that is, hell, - and this time, stay there. I have more important things to deal with than whether or not I choose to light a cigarette.
And no doubt Barack Obama feels the same way.
Pegi
Why they chose this, I can speculate only.
Perhaps to assist in falsifying my identity. Perhaps the name matched someone else born on this day. Perhaps they never knew when my birthday is, so chose a central date and hoped it would balance. Perhaps to discredit the fortune tellers. Perhaps because I got the 3 and 6 mixed up when I wrote what I thought my real birthday was. Too many vairaibles.
Even with the proficiency of German record keeping, it is useless without access. It is useles when one lives in the USA wherein the only history which exists is theirs, and their point of view of it. Despite the well-known family name which is mine by right of birth, there has been nothing in the USA for years to say we ever even existed. Except the other day, when a friend returned from Europe and said he had visited the Habsburg Palace and something about Hohenzollern lived there too. OK. At least we exist someplace and I am happy my friend chose to inquire of it. Someplace for me to start other than Baden Wurttemberg, where I have not been able to connect. Not where we were when I got lost from my parents anyway. We were in their summer home somewhere in the Alps. I know where I got lost to, I never knew where I got lost from, but my Papi felt my name and his were enough to get me home. So obviously, they were of some importance, my real parents.
Supposedly, I am 60 years old today.
But I am treated like I am 12 years old and expected to take on the duties of two houses, mostly the financial ones. That is where the problem is primary. The man I refer to as my "Dad", who has serious brain damage from chronic alcoholism, still fails to look ahead, fails to see past the immediate, and mostly, fails to see the reality of me. He thinks he's putting one over on me, but that is anout to end. His snake-in-the-grass ways wuill come to an end. He minds nothing ofpaying major money to a stranger to take care of him, but me, he wanted it for free. And that was not about to happen. And the protection of his life and finances I have given to him these past 10 years will also end if he refuses to take my advice and instead of running up more debt, refuses to cash in ready assets. I know he is doing this to spite me. He could never stand that I was right and he wasn't. He amuses himself in his fantasy that I will not be able to go home to Germany after his death because he intends to leave me broke and pennyless. That being the case, I will not have time or energy to tend to his needs.
These past 10 years of preventing his death have sucked what was left of my life out of me. Why didn't I just let him die? Truly, I do not know why. It was not a merciless thing. He was not in physical pain. I do not believe in torture for the sake of sustaining life. I had no choice in letting my brother Harry go to his peace. It destroyed me. The only solace I found was that for him, the suffering was ended. For me, it was only truly beginning. The abductress was in so much pain she couldn't draw a breath without crying. Her ribcage collapsed and then there was no way for her to breathe or eat. She had wanted to die for theprevious year, at which time the doctors told me that necrosis had begun to set in; the bone was not renewing itself. That is osteoporosis. Her years of alcoholism and combining opiods with alcohol only hastened the matter. She consumed zero calcium, didn't go out in the sun. It was a mercy for her to go. But his near-deaths were mostly due to his own stupid pig headedness. Except the first one. He had neglected his physical due to the non-stop whining and demands of the abductress and 6 months after her death underwnt a quadruple cardiac bypass surgery. For some reason, he expected my 5'4" and 135# self was supposed to help his 6' and 22# self recuperate at home on my own, refusing to let my boyfriend come with. He rehabbed in the hsopital facilities. He wanted to be home so he could get drunk some more.
After several trips to the emergency room for his alcohol overdoses, foot infections from diabtetes, asthmatic complications, he almost bit the dust 3 times in four years with multiple interim hospital trips for short term treatments. Those shennanigans stopped when I started getting "Into Prinzessin mode". That means I take no b.s. from anyone, doctors and health care people and financial parasites equally. It has kept him out of any and all emergency visits for 21 months now. But he is sliding back into laziness because his current home care is lazy. So things are goin to change.
He has always felt he should be waited on as he was by his wife, and none of the homefront matters are his to do. He simply does not do them when left on his own. It is a brain defect, I understand, and with the holes in his grey matter and his strokes, it is difficult to know the difference of what he cannot or just will not do. But he will clean up the mess he caused. I will not let him die until it is cleaned up, from the negligence to his home to the ridiculous financial decisions he has made. The ultimatum will be that he do as he should and reflect the correct proportions in his will, being that he has 4 grandchildren and not one, all of who have parents and the one he names having parents and three sets of grands, and myself, having no one on this earth. He will pay of his bills with what was intended for that one grandchild who now has a husband of her own, awaiting her third child, a husband, and an extremely well paying job as a teacher which the abductress and my Dad mostly paid for. He only paid for part of the Grandson's education, and at that, only one. And he will correct his errors or he will continue the remainder of his life with those errors but without my help.
There comes a time when I have to think of myself. I am in the wrong country not of my own choosing. I am disabled. There has been no one here whom I could even pretend enough to love to keep a relationship since they took all the men for soldiers when I was of a marrying mind. There are no good choices of men, and in 4 years I have not had the energy to seek out anyone. And it nearly landed me in hospital at the beginning of the year. I have had to let things be as they are. And I will have to start typing the book I began writing after my abductress died. It was too traumatic to recall what I was stolen from, so had to bandon that. I'm thinking of calling it "16 HOURS TO HELL" because that is how long the airplane took to carry me from Germany to the USA in 1959. And I need to contact publishers. ROCK MY SOUL was an e-book 12 years ago. Always ahead of my time and ahead of the thinking of most of this nation. They never catch up to where my mind is; they always lag behind. My "Dad" is no exception. He could not foresee living; only dieing. 10 years ago he wanted to discuss his death. I wanted to discuss his life. Now the time has come when his death must be discussed. If he chooses to continue as is, he will fade away within a year. But it isn't what he implies he chooses. He simply chooses not to do anything himself about it, but expects everyone else to do it for him. He is much like a large baby who unfortunately still has say over matters of importance. No doubt if I answered the letter that came for people in major debt they would advise him as I would. Maybe contacting them will be the ticket to cleaning up that mess and putting available funds where they belong-paying off his debts.
So after another sleepless night brought on by things which should not be my burden in the first place, I am going to smoke, and they can go back to where they came from- that is, hell, - and this time, stay there. I have more important things to deal with than whether or not I choose to light a cigarette.
And no doubt Barack Obama feels the same way.
Pegi
Saturday, June 4, 2011
RE: E. coli
E. coli:
Auf USA, ausbruch kommt meistens von Fabriken die nicht ganz sauber sind. Noetlichsten, Huehner und Fleish, und durch "Hamburgern" wie beim "Fast Food". Ist moeglich das jemand hat Abfall mit vergiftung auf Garten oder Felder geschmissen. So wann das klima richtig ist, verbreitet es einfach schnell.
Letzen paar Jahren gibt es auf USA "E. coli" in viele sachen die von Fabriken kommen.
Der CDC - USA (Center for Disease Control) hat eine lange Liste der vergifteten Sachen-von Hundefutter durch "Peanuts" und Babi Essen im Glass und so weiter. Vielleicht auf der Liste gibt es was, das war bei die Felder als Abfall verbreitet....
"E. coli" gibt es auch wann mann nicht die Haende gut Wascht, und auch die topfen und glatten "prep" platzen, im eigenem Haus. So es ist nicht so einfach zu wissen wovon sowas kommt....
Auf USA gibt es often "recall", wo sie muessen alle Kaufsachen von einem Platz zuruick kaufen....niemals das alle wegschmeissen oder verbieten. Manchmal tuhen sie hier etwas richtig.
(Zu viel das nicht richtig ist, aber dieses tuhen sie richtig.) Mann kann einfach am internet on CDC website die Liste anschauen-normal, 100 - 200 Sachen stehen darauf.
Gab es auf Hamburg sammlung irgeneinige Wissenschaftler? Und warum hatten Leute gedacht das es zuesrt von Spanien gekommen ist? Ist doch Saboteur moeglich.
Was ich hier auf USA gelernt haben, kann ich nichts ausregeln.
Ich sage: Gegen mein Deutschland, tuhen Ihr nichts!
Eure,
Pegi
Auf USA, ausbruch kommt meistens von Fabriken die nicht ganz sauber sind. Noetlichsten, Huehner und Fleish, und durch "Hamburgern" wie beim "Fast Food". Ist moeglich das jemand hat Abfall mit vergiftung auf Garten oder Felder geschmissen. So wann das klima richtig ist, verbreitet es einfach schnell.
Letzen paar Jahren gibt es auf USA "E. coli" in viele sachen die von Fabriken kommen.
Der CDC - USA (Center for Disease Control) hat eine lange Liste der vergifteten Sachen-von Hundefutter durch "Peanuts" und Babi Essen im Glass und so weiter. Vielleicht auf der Liste gibt es was, das war bei die Felder als Abfall verbreitet....
"E. coli" gibt es auch wann mann nicht die Haende gut Wascht, und auch die topfen und glatten "prep" platzen, im eigenem Haus. So es ist nicht so einfach zu wissen wovon sowas kommt....
Auf USA gibt es often "recall", wo sie muessen alle Kaufsachen von einem Platz zuruick kaufen....niemals das alle wegschmeissen oder verbieten. Manchmal tuhen sie hier etwas richtig.
(Zu viel das nicht richtig ist, aber dieses tuhen sie richtig.) Mann kann einfach am internet on CDC website die Liste anschauen-normal, 100 - 200 Sachen stehen darauf.
Gab es auf Hamburg sammlung irgeneinige Wissenschaftler? Und warum hatten Leute gedacht das es zuesrt von Spanien gekommen ist? Ist doch Saboteur moeglich.
Was ich hier auf USA gelernt haben, kann ich nichts ausregeln.
Ich sage: Gegen mein Deutschland, tuhen Ihr nichts!
Eure,
Pegi
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
ESP or Think Could Be?
Next US President? Joe Biden. He'll talk to his cabinet instead of moving recklessly.
US Secretary of State? Mass. Sen. John Kerry. He'll think before he goes on a jaunt.
US Secretary Of Interior? NJ Senator Robert Melendez or Al Gore. This Earth matters to them.
US Secretary of Health and Human Services? Sen. Frank Lautenberg. He knows what's needed beyond the skewed ideas of the healthy who are making rules for the sick and elderly.-hey, I'll be one on Monday!
US Secretary of Commerce? Donald J. Trump. Business is his business.
US Secretary of Education? Hilary Clinton. I think she's learned where the failings in US educations exists. Otherwise, hear ideas wouldn't have failed while her husband was President of the US.
US Secretary of Defense, or Energy, or State? NJ Congressman Rush Holt (he's BALANCED!)
US Secretary of Tourism? Sarah Palin. It's her forte.
Governor of New Jersey, USA? Dick Codey(or is that Cody?) -his experience in insurance gives him firsthand insight to what people with needs need, (people who aren't in need don't seem to "need" the government-til it's too late.) And New Jersey's people are in need deeper than any will admit because they don't want to deal with the Government. Which should be cleaning up the ethics of the "insurance" companies. Including those contracted to the Federal Gov't. He would know how to transition from the current system to everyone gets medical care.
Not favouring Democrats over Republicans; I feel whoever is in an official office is equally accountable to the people. That's not every slot to be filled , but I think these people have the strongest abilities in these areas.st and they care about the people's needs in those respective departments.
Nobody unfortunately to hold any International Office. Not sufficiently neutral to treat all countries fairly.
Regine "Pegi" Hohenzoller
PS: On a visual ESP via TV: It appears NJ's current Gov. is becoming ill......
US Secretary of State? Mass. Sen. John Kerry. He'll think before he goes on a jaunt.
US Secretary Of Interior? NJ Senator Robert Melendez or Al Gore. This Earth matters to them.
US Secretary of Health and Human Services? Sen. Frank Lautenberg. He knows what's needed beyond the skewed ideas of the healthy who are making rules for the sick and elderly.-hey, I'll be one on Monday!
US Secretary of Commerce? Donald J. Trump. Business is his business.
US Secretary of Education? Hilary Clinton. I think she's learned where the failings in US educations exists. Otherwise, hear ideas wouldn't have failed while her husband was President of the US.
US Secretary of Defense, or Energy, or State? NJ Congressman Rush Holt (he's BALANCED!)
US Secretary of Tourism? Sarah Palin. It's her forte.
Governor of New Jersey, USA? Dick Codey(or is that Cody?) -his experience in insurance gives him firsthand insight to what people with needs need, (people who aren't in need don't seem to "need" the government-til it's too late.) And New Jersey's people are in need deeper than any will admit because they don't want to deal with the Government. Which should be cleaning up the ethics of the "insurance" companies. Including those contracted to the Federal Gov't. He would know how to transition from the current system to everyone gets medical care.
Not favouring Democrats over Republicans; I feel whoever is in an official office is equally accountable to the people. That's not every slot to be filled , but I think these people have the strongest abilities in these areas.st and they care about the people's needs in those respective departments.
Nobody unfortunately to hold any International Office. Not sufficiently neutral to treat all countries fairly.
Regine "Pegi" Hohenzoller
PS: On a visual ESP via TV: It appears NJ's current Gov. is becoming ill......
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