Dear Charles,
Tonight as I watch your interview I find we could not be more in accord. Oftentimes I don't know what to write not because of lack of issue but because a cause pops into my head every few minutes. I do think you put the sum of the whole, people have lost touch with this earth, their nature, what they breathe to what they eat. They snicker at Royalty and boast this faked democracy, but yet they all want to be. Despite that the U.S. Constituion prohibits the conferring of Monarchial Titles, they refer to themselves as "Princesses", Queens" and "Kings". The truth of it is, most of us are slaves to this Capitalistic Megalopoly which lacks any sense of direction or purpose beyond war and destruction.
I've been here for the most of 42 years and I have watched, I've listened, and I see.
I see humanity lost to concrete and machines. I see love and romance become a financial and business proposition. I've seen the fallen trod upon, and disoaragement of those who would give a hand out or up. When and what from did this selfishness evolve?
From dissatisfaction of their own lot in life. From the lash of Capitalism masquerading as Democracy which forever drives them on without respite. Not even when they are old and sick; the "caregivers" and "medical system" only want to keep their hands in other people's pockets as long as possible. Now the age of retirement here is no longer 62, or 64. And they talk of raising it even more. They have bankrupted their own coffers in the desire for power and glory of being elected to office. Do they care about the people really? No. They only care that they get elected at the poles by spewing anti-tax things which would not be a problem if but one of them showed the people that the payment of taxes gave them something in return. "A secure, safe country" is not so secure and safe for those who have no food on the table, who cannot pay for medical and dental care, who are losing their homes because of a sudden, everyone who sold wanted to pay off not only their old house but wanted to include the cost of their new one in the sale of the old. And so it began, this out of control spiral of inflated real estate pricing. How does one get back from that? With no less than total economic collapse.
I saw waht George Bush was doing. And I opposed what Barack Obama did. He bailed out those who rubbed the nose of the American Public in their Capitalist Ethic and then asked to be rescued by the Socialist Conscience. As they sowed, so should they have reaped. But that's just not the way it is. Almost everyone in this country steals. From politicians to businessmen to drug dealers who have a pocket full of something to invest, they steal ideas with no recompense. They step on the very heads which propelled them in their quest to achieve a Royal Standard.
You say "Bloody People", which I believe you mean "Bloede Leut", oh so yes and getting worse. The news anchors are mere puppets who might well be perched on a knee like Winchell Mahoney because what comes out of their mouths is what was fed into their ears. Research? Verify? That's too much like actual work. They're "Personalities" nowadays; they're not news men or women. And the American Public? Bloede Leute even worse, they lsten and repeat what comes from the mouths of fools. Thinking might disturb their brainwashed little selves.
I don't know that I feel anything at all about the upcoming marriage of your son. There are issues of relationships always; more complicated by station in life. No doubt you know what they say about Hollywood marriages. The difference is that the attitudes are different.
I have said that there are things in life which we never get over, we just learn to live with them. The absence of loved ones lost to death are the primary things there. Can you find happiness and peace when constantly wounds are torn open again? They are not well-meaning; they are meant to upset and disturb.
For the most we all are diplomatic but there comes a time when this does not penetrate the brains of the ignorant. And for all the touting of the advances USA claims, they are highly ignorant of the rest of the world. I've had to tolerate this from the age of 8, being told I couldn't possibly have an Aunt in France and that I and my charge, Harald, were NAZI. I always said I knew where the NAZIs went-they came to the United States. Seeing history, it's where they began. Only their "jews" were Africans. As much as some decry anti0semitism, prejudice here abounds and always has. In the beginning it was against blacks. It was against women. It was against communes. It was against Socialists. It was against Irish, Italians, Polish, Chinese, Japanese, Russians, Koreans. There isn't a race or a place in the world against whom these were not at some time or other prejudiced. We both know what that currently is. What was your Harry thinking, going to Iraq and Afghanistan? It is my hope he had brain enough to go and seek the truth fro himself, not fight a cause for which there was no proof but hearsay.
I wrote recently to the Congressman from district where I live to tell him what I had not remembered, about what may have triggered the events of 9/11.
A man, seemingly crazed by drug or suggestion, walked up to me ranting and babbling that the top of the World Trade Center housed all the computers which ran all the business and military actions of the world and the US. I tried to explain to him the possible ramifications of such unsubstantiated and conjured nonesense. He didn't get it, that those things were housed where they are thought to be impenetratable. He preferred to ascribe to the "Hide in Plain Sight" principle. I tried further to reason with him, to go there, to see for himself. He demanded to know what I knew about where these things might be. I didn't reply because I was astounded that what I thought common knowledge was lacking in his head. And how many times was it repeated, "There are no weapons of mass destruction." In the end, it was a retaliation for threats against the Bush children; there were threats also against the sons of Sadam (Hussein). It has long been agreed that the children of those in power were off limits. When they are in the military, does that change because they now rank as "Soldier"? The whole thing was misguided and horrid. Put pushpins in every place where U.S. soldiers are now stationed and compare to where Great Britain (or the British Empire) had theirs. Do they/did they belong there? I say if the people are happy, stay the hell out of their country, you're trespassing. A thing the Americans didn't want to hear when they were in Germany as "occupation forces". Everyone else has left, why are they still there? I've told the US repeatedly my allegiance is not with them. I have a right to not agree with their expansionist, world domination for capitalism ethic. Especially that they so grievously fail their own people. They churn out automatons based on wht the economy needs, no regard for aptitude, talent, desire or fitness to serve in a given capacity.
The biggest laugh of my life came when I was working in Engineering and doing "Word Processing', aka typing. They were always gooing over how great I was at my job. One day I said to them "I'd like some day to find out what I could accomplish if I got a job doing something I didn't flunk in school." Stunned looks. I'm incompetent at typing, the 3 month course was my only failing grade among A's in all else. Math being the second problem. I knew how to do the eqasions Euro style. I didn't know the American way. The teacher's didn't "see" how I got the answer, I hadn't done the step-math on the paper. It made no sense to me. So because they didn't know how I got the answer, they refused to pass me. An oral examination would have proven my part. But the teachers weren't smart enough to think of doing that. So they decided I couldn't pass. Imagine the raised brows when my Aptitude Tests and College Entrance Exams returned a higher score in my Math than my English which I had aced since I began to speak the language some time in third grade, a few months after being trapped here. They make no sense. I wish I could say ignore them, but that only makes them more ignorant.
I am happy you have taken what you have and given meditation and exploration and human contact with all things outside "the castle".None of it is for ignoring. None of it is for destruction by ignorant outside forces. A time ago I said "I cannot wait for 2012. I cannot tolerate the way things are. My only hope is that when it comes, I will not be here, I will be back home." I can't abandon the American who devoted his life to being my Dad despite his wife, my abductress, doing all she could against anything which favored me. He has rescued me to her consternation. Her death in 2001 was a relief and she is seldon thought of. For years my Dad would buy me clothes. There was much about my being here he and I had not discussed. What English I knew, the shock cause it lost and he could not understand German. I asked him, "Dad, I know you were upset that when I (we-Harry & I) arrived, we had no clothes with us. I don't know what you thought, that the airlines lost them or there weren't any to send. But the truth is, there were no clothes sent because I was not supposed to stay here. They thought you'd figure it out if we came without enough clothes." His response was that now it makes sense. He had been annoyed because he did not know why then. I had to tell him "I'm sorry, your wife was not honest with you. But i told you who I am when you were in Germany and what you said was 'I asked the kid her name and she gives me a sentence.' It wasn't a sentence, it was my full name. Now I don't remember the whole thing, only part of it, because they decided I didn't need to drag all the dead people in the family around with me. My name is _ _ _,_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _, _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _, _ _ _ _ _ _ _, Sanctus_____________________________________. Americans expect 3 word sentences from their kids and are dumfounded when that's not what they get. Oh well.
It seems William and Kate are not repeating Diana's mistake. Common courtesy would have dictated that she seek out the Lady of the Manor, that being Mami Elisabeth. Instead she chose to saty in her rooms, decrying her "solitude". I've corresponded with Mami Elisabeth when I have not been so ensconced in the madness of my abductress, the destruction of my own life, and for a long time but nearly every day in the last three years the continuation of my American Dad's mortal life. My life would be different if he had died, but again more joyless. I find little joy in what remains of my life. I knew it would be destroyed if I were forced to remainh here, and so it was. Beyond all the obvious such as a secure future being stolen from me, there was a near death illness from air pollution which left me dbilitated and within six months, the sister of an employee of the very company against whom suit had been filed slammed into the rear of my car and destroyed my spine. I had planned to go home to have it fixed, it would have been around $10,000. then (20 years ago)but everyone and everything had what I call a panicked death grip on me, doing all they could to keep me here. I expatriated where I stood. I wroet to the government, hoping they'd deport me. But they loved what I said and couldn't get enough of it. I was astonished. I kept on for the good of the whole world. But this last election shows me, they don't know what is good for their own selves. But I have some converts who thought they were Republicans til they heard what I said. Some woke up and I hope passed things on.
I do have some thing to say to William and Kate: Do not let them force you into a role of being any person other than your own. I don't care how much they talked your mother up; a lot was just to put the Monarchy down. The envy it, they want to be it, they hold a begridging jealousy for what they can't achieve. Don't let them steal your lives, your ideas. Tell them the things which fall in line with the direction you want to lead. Your father was far more shy than "Shy Di", but what his has accomplished is very, very much, without the support of the media and at the time Diana. I am happy things appear better with Camilla. One can do much worse than to marry their best friend. I can't imagine marrying a man who isn't that to me. That is because of my charge, my adopted brother Harry. He died far too young, from liver cancer, in 1999. He was the most loyal defender I have ever known and stood by me when I was faltering. I wish he'd told me more of what his needs were, perhaps I could have helped before it was too late. Before he died he said "I wish I'd seen it before. You have been my best friend all along. When I was drunk, you said don't do it. When I did drugs, you did everything to make me stop. AAnd I resented you for it then but I know now those other people who just kept on helping me do it more were not my friends at all. The only one who was true and caring about me was you. You didn't want me hurting myself." At least I was able to say "It was because you were those things and more to me." If the woman you are planning to marry is anything less, cares less for you than what the public thinks, then end it. If she is your true friend and defender against the outside things which could hurt you, against the ways you hurt yourself, then she is your true friend and your marriage has a chance. You can be in charge only so long as you can see the whole and not just you. But I think you learned that from your father. Your mother was much loved because she played to the public. But your father, quietly, has done much, and would do more if humanly possible. Mami Elisabeth I know has always been open to the human element. Look to her even more now. What is me and what isperceived are not the same thing, even by those "close" to me. They see what they feel, not what you are, what you feel or what you fail.
Much love and Very Best Wishes to Mami Elisabeth,
the lost Prinzess,
Pegi, von Vater Nikolaus.
(I am 59 years old this year. I cannot be. I haven't accomplished anything-each time I do, they revert back to "Bloede".)
